No matter what... I love you, always

"Despite any obstacles that come our way

and all the many differences we've shared,

I find myself loving you more with time.

I love you when our moods vary

and when our opinions go in opposite directions.

I love you when your ideas

aren't quite the same as mine

and our beliefs clash.

I love you when you take a stand

on what you feel is absolutely right,

even if I don't feel the same way.

I even love you when you're tired and grumpy

and don't want much to do with me

at that moment.

What I'm trying to say is that

I love you no matter what,

even as we struggle to be

our own individuals.

It doesn't matter how different we may be.

As I've spent more and more

time by your side,

I've learned that I love you most

of all because you are different

from me and can express it.

I love you for what you believe,

for the emotions you feel,

and for the ideas that help me

open my own mind

to possibilities I haven't yet explored."

* I found this card at the card store and I instantly teared up. I knew it was the perfect card for my boyfriend :)

List: Books I want to read

1. The notebook
2. The Last Song
3. Dear John
4. New Moon (working on it)
5. Eclipse
6. Breaking Dawn
7. Dracula
8. Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus
9. A walk to remember
10. The Lo-Down

* more will be added eventually :)

Review: Body Shop Bath & Skin Care

ATM: Favourite products from The Body Shop

Tea Tree Body Wash $13

If you're like me and you're prone to back-ne (back acne) I HIGHLY, HIGHLY, HIGHLY, recommend Bath and Body works Tea Tree Body Wash. I've been using this body wash for a week and I'm already seeing great results. At first I was afraid of the scent the body wash was giving off and that it would be over-drying, however the tea tree scent wasn't strong at all. In fact, the smell was quiet refreshing! Also, the very first ingredient is: Water. Thats what the good stuffs made of ;) Last but not least, tea tree is a natural ingredient that is absolutely beneficial to the skin

http://www.thebodyshop.ca/en/bath-products/shower-gel/tea-tree-body-wash.aspx

Aloe Calming Facial Cleanser $14 (now $8)

The product name says it all. Everyone knows that ALOE is AMAZING for the skin. All I have to say is, my skin feels a lot smoother and less "stressed". Its safe to use daily and it will not over dry your skin. Once again, the first ingredient is Water and the second is Aloe ;) Its a MUST BUY **

http://www.thebodyshop.ca/en/skin-care/face-wash/aloe-calming-facial-cleanser.aspx

They have an awesome sale going on right now so hurry up and get em while you can :)

Nearing the end of another chapter

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming

- California King bed

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I still love you and I still want to be with you and I know you feel the same way. But we are no longer together. We both know that this decision is the best for the both of us but its even harder to part knowing that we still love each other. Everytime I close my eyes I think of the things we've done together from the beginning till the end of our relationship.. I think of all the things we've talked about and wanted to do together this summer. I know I haven't been the most understanding girlfriend and I haven't always been satisfied throughout our 1 year + 1 month relationship. But I don't regret a single thing we've gone through. I can no longer continue hurting myself and I don't want you to feel the pressure anymore.. you always say you've failed and you don't deserve me. But i know you tried and that means a lot to me. Maybe I just expect too much.. we love each other but maybe it isn't the right time for us right now. You are one of the nicest guys I know and I know you are sincere at heart. I really hope we can keep our promise of never avoiding each other. You were an important part of my life and I hope you continue to be a part of my life. I know you want that too and I will try my best. But for now, its the end of our chapter and for a new one to begin..

I'll never forget our very last phone conversation. It was like the very first time we talked on the phone till the sun rose. Its funny how I talked about wanting to watch the sunrise with you on the day of and we stayed on the phone till the sun came up.. I really didn't want our conversation to end cause I knew that from then on, things wont be the same anymore. Waking up knowing you aren't there is the hardest part for me. But i know that things will get better and Im staying strong. Because we both want what is best for each other...

and I already miss you so much.

"If you love something, you sometimes have to let it go and if its meant to be then it will come back"

"If we're meant to be then we'll be back together no matter what"